We heard before, by the causeless mercy of the guru-varga and Vaiṣṇavas, how we can go nearby them. If we follow their tendency and desire, it will be very pleasing to them. For our own happiness, enjoyment or recreation, this book should not be read. You should not follow this book. Then you will fall down and have no protection. Desire for mundane enjoyment will become very strong and cause so much trouble.
Therefore the guru-varga prohibit us, saying, “Don’t read, open or touch this book.” What is the process to go near the rūpānuga-guru-varga? We don’t read this book for our own enjoyment, or to fulfill our own desires. This book is like the process to go near the guru-varga. If one reads things simply according to his own desires for sense gratification, according to his own choice, one will not only go to hell, the material desires will completely bind and cover the soul so that he can never escape. But this is also the only way and process to go near the guru-varga and to please them. They instruct us to drink this līlāmṛta. It means, one must surrender to the līlā-śakti.
Līlā-śakti is very helpful. Only by drinking this līlā-rasa can one become perfect. Why is that? There is no other way to go there, nothing else works. Therefore, one must take shelter near līlā-śakti. She will make one related to svarūpa-śakti, and then all material things and attachments will be cut off. All mundane attachments, relations, desires and nature will be cut and given up, renouncement will follow and you will become a sannyāsī. This is the real path of sannyāsa.
If one doesn’t follow līlā-śakti, he will not be possible to renounce anything even in millions of lives. It will not be possible to get liberation from anything. Mundane śakti, and one’s own sādhana is very small. One’s own mundane power will take one and throw one down. Even if one tries to cross māyā again and again, it would be impossible. More and more one will be arrested. Therefore, the guru-varga are very clever. They save everything for us. For any sādhaka that would come in the future, simply by remembering Kṛṣṇa das Kavirāja Gosvāmī, Viśvanātha Cakarvarti Ṭhākura, and the guru-varga, and daily prayer to these personalities, then what will they give for us? They will give this nectar.
They will say, “Drink this nectar, then you will come near us, you will go to Vraja Bhūmi and be able to perform your eternal service.”
But if I do not remember and follow them, my own sādhana is dry. My harināma, hari-kīrtana, and everything will only give dryness. Therefore, remember your Guru Mahārāja, Param Gurudeva, Parātpara Gurudeva, Parameṣṭi Gurudevaand so forth.
What do they give? They save us pure nectar. They have reserved that for us. If we don’t follow that, how can we go near them? They won’t be happy. If you say, “No, I will do haṭha-yoga,” or if you try very hard, performing more and more austerities, it is useless.
In Jaiva Dharma, Sannyāsī Ṭhākura came near Premadāsa Paramahaṁsa Bābājī and sat in front of him. Bābājī Mahārāja was chanting and remembering the eternal pastimes of Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa. When the sun rises, its heat and light spreads to all, in this way, from the sādhus, rays of transcendental consciousness comes from them. Bābājī Mahārāja did not give instruction to Sannyāsī Ṭhākura to give up his Mayavadi dress and become a paramahaṁsa.
By the spiritual influence of Bābājī Mahārāja, Sannyāsī Ṭhākura automatically followed the footsteps of Bābājī Mahārāja. This is called the line of anurāgamayi-bhakti. This is the sādhana of anurāgamayi-bhakti. If people have no understanding of this, they may go to bogus people and follow their footsteps, people who only insult and hate, and give bad announcements, having no brain, being simply mad and crazy and without any time for absorbing themselves in līlā-śakti. They say, “Don’t look, don’t read, don’t touch this book.” Then who will help you? Therefore, Śukadeva Gosvāmī said:
vikrīḍitaṁ vraja-vadhūbhir idaṁ ca viṣṇoḥ
śraddhānvito ‘nuśṛṇuyād atha varṇayed yaḥ
bhaktiṁ parāṁ Bhagavatī pratilabhya kāmaṁ
hṛd-rogam āśv apahinoty acireṇa dhīraḥ
“Anyone who faithfully hears or describes the Lord’s playful affairs with the young gopīs of Vṛndāvana will attain the Lord’s pure devotional service. Thus he will quickly become sober and conquer lust, the disease of the heart.”
Oh Parīkṣit Mahārāja, nothing else will help you, myself, or any others. Only one thing is helpful to destroy the heart disease of lust—the pastimes of vraja-raja Kṛṣṇa, Vrajendra-nandana, in Vraja Bhūmi, when He plays with the Vraja-devīs. If anyone explains these with deep faith and respect, then by hearing from him, and following that person’s footsteps, that nectar will come in your heart. Then, the disease of lust, for millions and millions of lives, the desire to enjoy, and have an independent doer mood, will all be purified, and you will give it all up and be delivered from material existence. You will taste supreme happiness, and be related with the family of God. But people think, “This is not good. I have attachment with the mundane rasa, how can I hear and read this? I have no faith or respect.”
You should remember the Gosvāmīs every day, therefore it is said:
ei chaya gosāir kori caraṇa vandana
jāhā hoite vighna-nāśa abhīṣṭa-pūraṇa
ei chaya gosāi jabe vraje koilā vāsa
rādhā-kṛṣṇa-nitya-līlā korilā prakāśa
If you remember the gosvāmīs, then Kṛṣṇa’s eternal pastimes will manifest in your heart. This is their service. They follow the footsteps of līlā-śakti, by her mercy, she will come in the heart, cleaning everything and manifesting all Vraja pastimes there. Therefore, don’t think that we are not able or qualified to read this Govinda-līlāmṛta.
Everything else is dark and polluted. But this Govinda-līlāmṛta will clean our hearts, then show us our true nature and reality and help us progress. Then we will not be destroyed again and again, life after life.
In the morning time, Jaṭilā calls Rādhārānī, “My dear Rādhe, go with Kundalatā. She is very helpful, and has a broad heart. She will protect you. When You go, quickly perform all Your services and in return with her. Don’t go here and there alone. When You come back, go worship the sun. Then You will be strong.
Rādhārānī took this order from Jaṭilā and internally became very happy. But outside, She said, “No, no, no, I won’t go. This is not good for Me. Why should I go to serve and cook at another person’s house? Also, it’s not that there is only one or two people there, there are so many thousands. And they look at Me like a worker who comes from outside and cooks. It is not good for Me. This will also be an insult for you.”
Why does She say like this? Then Jaṭilā will think, “Rādhārānī is on my side, She respects and follows me.” Otherwise, if a little hint is given, and then someone runs and jumps too eagerly, it shows that he has a strong desire to do this.
Therefore, Rādhārānī said, “No, I don’t want to go. Also, I will have to walk so far, and then come back. I’ll become tired, and then I have to go for sūrya-pūjā, and then come back again. I will be so tired. I have been working since morning in the house, cleaning, washing the floors and doing everything. Now I am tired. And everything is still not complete. I am an honest girl—very chaste. How can I go to work at another person’s house? What will people say about Me? I am the daughter of Vrsabhanu. I stay in your house, but how can I go to work and serve at another’s house? I won’t go. Today You send me to that house, tomorrow You will send Me to another house, and another and another, this is not good.”
Jaṭilā requested Rādhārānī, “Please go.”
She said to Kundalatā, “I know that She is honest and chaste, and doesn’t want to go. But if She doesn’t go, then Yaśodā Mātā will be very angry, and Nanda Bābā will be displeased.”
Why does Jaṭilā say like this? She is very greedy. If Rādhārānī isn’t sent, Yaśodā Mātā will not send nice sweets, cloth, ornaments and so forth. Jaṭilā always wants to collect so many possessions.
Therefore she says, “Rādhā, don’t be afraid. I will arrange to protect You carefully. Don’t be worried.”
Kundalatā says, “Don’t worry Jaṭilā, I promise to protect Rādhā. I will always be with Her, don’t worry.”
Lalitā came and said, “My dear friend, in the early morning, Kṛṣṇa is now waking and has gone to the cowshed. He will come back very late. He is always very busy. We will go there without any problem.”
The previous night, Rādhārānī and the sakhīs had made many types of laḍḍūs. They filled small baskets, and covered them with flowers and green leaves on top of a cloth. On top of some baskets, they put some dry cloth.
Jaṭilā asks, “Why are you carrying these baskets?”
They say, “We will become thirsty on the way and will drink some water. The sun may heat us. So we will cover our heads. This other basket has green leaves and flowers. If any deer come while we’re on the way, we will feed them. Many other animals are in the jungle, and when we go, they come and we have to give them something.”
The sakhīs carried these baskets. They knew that Kṛṣṇa was in the cowshed, and He would be waiting at Ṭera-kadamba with the sakhās. He had milked the cows, and was now hungry and thirsty. The sevaka or sevikā is always active to serve. Their hearts are not dry, but are full of love and everything they do is with love.
On the way, Madhumaṅgala stopped the sakhīs with the sakhās, saying, “Please give these to me, they are very heavy, how can you carry them?”
Śrīdāma said, “Don’t give to him, if you do so, he will steal and eat everything, without sharing it with anyone.”
Kiṅkiṇī and Lavaṅga said, “We are honest, give us. And we will give only to whom you tell.”
Kṛṣṇa’s very close friend Subhadrā Sakhā said, “O Kundalatā, you are elder and strong. But these mañjarīs and kiśorīs are very young and small. How can they carry these heavy baskets? You are very cruel. Why are you giving them pain? Give these baskets to me.”
Madhumaṅgala was very clever, he stole a basket, and climbed with it to the top of a tree. He sat in the top of a banyan tree and would not come down. He looked around to make sure that no one could come and take the laḍḍūs from him. But suddenly, Kṛṣṇa’s monkey, named Sundara, came and stole the basket and ran with it. Madhumaṅgala became very distressed and cried out, “Alas!” Sundara, the monkey, took the basket to Kṛṣṇa in the cowshed, and seeing this, Kṛṣṇa became very happy.
Kṛṣṇa said, “I will give you one or two pieces? How much do you want?”
If anyone offers something heartly to Kṛṣṇa, anyhow it will reach Him. For example, once Draupadī was in the forest. Everyday she cooks inside one pot, and offers this bhoga to Kṛṣṇa with tulasī, and then gives to her husband’s and Kuntī and then she will eat last. One day around four in the afternoon, Durvāsā Ṛṣi came with many thousands of disciples. He told Bhīma, “I am very hungry, and have come to take prasāda.”
Yudhiṣṭhira Mahārāja requested him to take bath and then return for food. Yudhiṣṭhira ask Draupadī, “Is there any prasādam left?”
She said, “No, nothing is left.”
Yudhiṣṭhira Mahārāja lamented, “He will curse us all for not having anything to give him.”
Draupadī called Kṛṣṇa in distress. He had just sat down in Dvārakā for prasādam. But He gave up His plate, and without shoes, umbrella, or worry of being fully dressed, He ran out. His queens asked, “Where are you going?”
“Someone is calling Me.”
He went to Draupadī and said, “I am very hungry, I have not eaten for so long.”
She said to him, “O Prabhu, why are you teasing me?”
Draupadī said, “I have called you because I’m in dangerous circumstances. I am without any food, and yet You’re teasing me and asking me for something to eat.”
“No, no you offered me something,” Kṛṣṇa said.
“Yes, I offered to you, but now everything is finished.”
“If anything is offered to Me, I will be present there. No one can take a share of what is mine. Bring your pot here.
“I finished everything, and already cleaned it kept it upside down.”
“Just bring the pot.”
Draupadī had offered the tulasī leaf, and because the food had been very hot, she put the tulasī leaf on the side. One should not place tulasī in a hot item. She should be placed on water on one side. Draupadī had placed the tulasī on one side, and since the pot was so very hot, it become fixed to the side. She washed the pot, but the tulasī leaf was left, fixed the side. Kṛṣṇa picked off the tulsi leaf with his nails, and ate that. Then He drank the glass of water said, “Tṛpto ’smi, I am satisfied.”
Then Durvāsā Ṛṣi and his disciples stomachs were all full. They felt as if they could not eat a single morsel.
Bhīma went to call them, “O sages, prasādam is ready please come.” But Durvāsā Ṛṣi ran away with all his disciples. He was afraid to ever fight again with the devotees. He remembered what had happened with Ambrish Mahārāja. He knew that if he did not go and eat, then they would be very upset with him.
The sakhīs and mañjarīs brought the laḍḍūs and sweets, and Madhumaṅgala stole them and went to the top of the tree. Sundara, the monkey of Kṛṣṇa, who is very fat and strong, took the basket and ran with it to Kṛṣṇa who was in the cowshed milking the cows.
If you go to Vṛndāvana, you will see the monkeys. They steal your bag, your glasses, shoes, and everything. And then they give them to a householder, who trades it for bananas, biscuits or some other food. The monkeys have this business in Vraja. They are clever.
Sundara gave this basket to Kṛṣṇa, who opened the cover and gave sweets and fruits to the calves, cows, took some Himself, as well as giving to the sakhās.
Śrīmatī Rādhārānī with the sakhīs came along that pathway, and Kṛṣṇa also sent them some prasādam.
A basket was sent to the gopīs with the sakhās, who came out to the gate of the cowshed and said, “This is Kṛṣṇa’s early morning prasādam.”
The gopīs were surprised, “How is it possible that Kṛṣṇa already took this!” they thought. Sakhīs gave some of the sweets to Rādhārānī, and She began to shiver and sweat and then She sat down, unable to walk forward more. The sakhīs began to fan Her. From a distance, Kṛṣṇa was watching them all. He came from behind and addressed Kundalatā, the wife of his cousin.
He asked her, “Why are you waiting here? Was taking this prasāda not enough? I don’t have any more now, but I have so much milk. Do you want some? Is anyone thirsty?”
He saw the sakhīs and mañjarīs had many baskets. Kṛṣṇa opened all the baskets, and took some treats, and distributed to all.
This feast is performed inside the jungle around Ṭera-kadamba.
How sweet are these pastimes? Kṛṣṇa takes one sweet, and gives to another, and they share amongst themselves. This līlā-śakti makes all the associates very close, and related.
Lalitā Devī said, “You are very sweet. Vrajarāja is waiting for You. Don’t sit here any longer, we should go.”
Rādhārānī looked to both sides of the path. The sakhās had arranged a very nice lotus flower garland and gave it to Kṛṣṇa. They brought Kṛṣṇa’s prasādī-mālā and gave it to Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. Wearing this, She became full of energy, like She’d been given so much strength, and than She got up and went along Her way to Nanda-bhavana.
Lalitā Devī said, “Kṛṣṇa is very powerful, if one takes anything from Him she gets spiritual strength. That power will never be lost. Therefore, don’t give up this mālā. Keep it with You and You will never become weak and tired.”
Rādhārānī saw that honey was dripping from the lotus garland. In the early morning the sakhas collected the flowers, before they had fully blossomed. They were only budding. When the sun rose, these flowers opened, and when touching Kṛṣṇa, they became so happy. They next came to Śrīmatī Rādhārānī, and honey started dropping from the flowers, as if they were speaking with so much happiness.
Viśākhā Devī came nearby Śrīmatī Rādhārānī and gave Her nice small flower earrings. These flowers are very sweet smelling, and a nice color. Touching them, it was like a caress and kiss of a very sweet person. These flowers would swing, and touch the cheeks of Śrīmatī Rādhārānī.
Viśākhā Devī said, “Before, these flowers were offered to the feet of Kṛṣṇa and have been collected from there. Then we made them into earrings for You, and the crown for Your hair, and many ornaments for Your body.”
“The sun is rising,” Rādhārānī said, “and nice lotuses are blossoming. You know, many bumblebees fly to the lotuses very eager for nectar. Kṛṣṇa will certainly run and attack us. He is also a very greedy bumblebee in the family of bumblebees, therefore I have some fear.”
In the early morning, when lotuses blossom, bumblebees run very fast to drink nectar. All dark people, or those in the family of bumblebees, have this nature. Therefore, Rādhārānī said, “I will cover My face, and protect Myself. He may come from any direction and attack us. Then how will I protect Myself? I do not want to see Him. I do not want to meet with Him. He, His followers, and even His color, are very bad.”
Her heart is always remembering Him. Therefore She couldn’t control Herself. And now with a crooked mood, She began to speak against Him. When one likes something very much, he may tell to others that he dislikes it very much to hide his own desire. One likes something so much, and cannot forget about it for a single instant and then always tells others it is bad, bad, bad.
Lalitā Devī understands the heart of Śrīmatī Rādhārānī, and also Viśākhā Devī. They said, “Rādhikā, You are very sweet. Why are You insulting Kṛṣṇa? The dark party, and His followers are recording everything that You say, and they will answer. If You don’t speak anything, and no one hears anything, then no one will be disturbed. Now Your words are going, anywhere they go, it will cause a reaction. And a big fight and battle will start. Be ready for the fight. Therefore, don’t speak, stay silent and quickly cross this dangerous pathway.”
The sakhās heard all this, and reported to Kṛṣṇa, “The gopīs are insulting You, calling You black.”
They confronted the gopīs saying, “Why have You insulted our sakhā?”
What would come next?
Lalitā Devī said to Śrīmatī Rādhārānī, “Don’t speak, this area is very dangerous.”
She tried to protect Śrīmatī Rādhārānī, but you know the nature of bumblebees, how they are clever and powerful. What will a lotus do? When a lotus blossoms, the bumblebee goes, sits on the flower and bites into it, drinking the honey. The bumblebee has six legs. With these he catches the lotus and stays there without leaving.
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