[Lecture by Srila Gurudeva, Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Gosvami Maharaja]
Śrīla Gurudeva: These are not services. This kind of disciple is ‘vaka’ (a crane)—without ‘se’ (and ‘vaka’, together, forming the word sevaka). We should not be like this. If anyone knows the moods of his Gurudeva, Śrī Kṛṣṇa, and the Vaiṣṇavas, then the disciple can serve more and more superiorly, not outwardly like the vaka disciple. Also, some kinds of sevakas will be ordered to bring one glass of water and they will at once run and bring it. Such kind of sevakas belong to the second class category. The first class sevaka will serve his Gurudeva without any order; he will know instantly what his Gurudeva wants, while those who carry out the orders of their Gurudeva only when ordered are second class sevakas.
On the other hand, an instance of a third class sevaka’s service is when he is ordered by his Gurudeva to preach in England but instead of doing this, the sevaka will go to preach in New Vṛṇdāvana. Gurudeva tells him to do one thing and the sevaka does another thing. The third class sevaka might also say, “I will go but what if I don’t meet the people who are intended to help me preach in England? What should I do then Gurudeva?”
When Gurudeva tells him firmly again to go to England the sevaka will retort by saying, “Gurudeva, what if it is not comfortable and helpful for me in England, what should I do then?”
When Gurudeva replies by saying, “At least first go there and see how things will turn out to be!” the sevaka replies by saying, “Gurudeva, what if I fall ill there? What should I do then?”
Gurudeva will then say, “Why can’t you just go, and why are you questioning?”
The sevaka will say, “Gurudeva, I am ready to carry out your order, but what if it is too cold there? What am I to do then?”
These kind of sevakas are like a ‘vaka’ crane. They cannot carry out the order of their Gurudeva. They know that this body is the real self for Śrī Kṛṣṇa and His pure devotees like Śrīla Prabhupāda and other bona fide Vaiṣṇavas. They know that there is no difference between the possessor and the possessed when it comes to Śrī Kṛṣṇa and His pure devotees wherein there is no difference between Their soul and bodies, but they are unable to realize.
So here he is, saying:
bhavantam evānucaran nirantaraḥ
[By serving You constantly, one is freed from all material desires and is completely pacified. When shall I engage as Your permanent eternal servant and always feel joyful to have such a fitting master?]
“I want to serve a devotee like that.”
One should serve more than even Hanumānji while residing in Vraja. Śrī Raktaka and Patraka love Kṛṣṇa, though they are the servants of Śrī Nanda Mahārāja. They are engrossed in the conception, “Kṛṣṇa is my son,” and they can take Kṛṣṇa on their laps and kiss Him. They can give their hearts and would be willing to give their heads for their beloved Kṛṣṇa. They know all the moods of Kṛṣṇa like when He shall take His food, when He shall take His milk, when He will take butter, or any other thing. When Kṛṣṇa might want to wander in Vṛṇdāvana, they know everything. They are praśānta-niḥśeṣa-mano-rathāntaraḥ (completely content and free from material desires). They are anyābhilāṣitā śūnyaṁ, and they don’t want anything for themselves. You know Dāruka? Who was Dāruka?
Devotees: Dāruka was the charioteer of Kṛṣṇa.
Śrīla Gurudeva: He was the dāsa (servant) of Kṛṣṇa, not of Vṛndāvana, but of Dvārakā. He was not superior like Śrī Raktaka and Śrī Patraka, but still he was a bona fide dāsa. Once he was fanning Kṛṣṇa during the summer and when he noticed how Kṛṣṇa was so happy and beautiful, the whisk slipped from his hand and fell to the ground. Seeing this, Dāruka started saying, “Dhik mām, dhik mām—Fie on me! Fie on me!” Why did he say this? He said so because he felt that he lost himself in the ānanda (bliss) of serving Kṛṣṇa, so much so, that it hindered him in his service to his beloved Lord. Dāruka thought to himself, “Why did I do so?” For just a moment the fan had slipped from his hand, but for that, he felt he was so much at fault as it deprived him of his service to Kṛṣṇa.
Therefore, a true sevaka will not do anything for himself. The gopīs were dressing themselves in a very nice way, wearing most beautiful ornaments, garlands, and clothes, applying very beautiful kājjala on their very lovely, charming, and crooked eyes. They are decorating themselves so beautifully not for themselves but only to please Kṛṣṇa.
So a sādhaka should be of this caliber. He is using the bathroom, not for himself, but for Kṛṣṇa. He is sleeping, not for himself, but for Kṛṣṇa. He is taking breakfast, not for himself, but for Kṛṣṇa. He is going somewhere, not for himself, but for Kṛṣṇa. Anything he does, he does for Kṛṣṇa. How does he engage in such kind of sevā? For a sevaka of that caliber it is possible.
We should get up in the morning, finish our duties, and start chanting and remembering Kṛṣṇa happily, without any disturbance. “For this reason, I must sleep a while,” This is how a servant of that caliber thinks. The gopīs think that if they are happy and beautiful, Kṛṣṇa will be happy and beautiful, and if they are not happy, Kṛṣṇa will be unhappy. So they think, “We must be happy.”
In a reciprocal manner, Kṛṣṇa thinks, “If I will be happy, then the gopīs will be happy. If I am unhappy then the gopīs will be unhappy. So I must be happy.” There is a contest between them.
These are the moods of dāsya-bhāva.
Prabhu kahe eho haya, age kaho ara—Mahāprabhu said, “Oh! You are telling many bona fide things, but you should go on further.” Why did Mahāprabhu say this? He said this because there is a big, high wall of awe and reverence between Prabhu and dāsa, and that is aiśvarya-bhāva. That means, Kṛṣṇa is the Supreme Personality of Godhead, and I am a very little, little dāsa.
Hanumānji cannot embrace Śrī Rāmacandraji. He cannot kiss Śrī Rāmacandraji, but the servants of Vraja can kiss and embrace Kṛṣṇa. Even in their service there is a wall of opulence. Therefore, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu wanted to break this wall down and show that when two hearts meet even a lean and thin paper like wall must be conspicuous by its absence. In dāsya-rasa there is a high wall of opulence, the Prabhu and the dāsa cannot sit on the same seat. For instance, the servants of Śrī Rāmacandraji cannot sit on the same seat with Him. They (Śrī Rāmacandraji and His servants like Śrī Hanumānji) cannot eat from the same plate; they cannot sit and sleep on the same seat or bed, because the servant is of the consciousness that an offense will be committed if this is done.
Mahāprabhu told Śrīla Rāya Rāmānanda Prabhu to go on. Then Śrīla Rāya Rāmānanda Prabhu said, “Sakhya prema sarva sādhya sāra—Sakhya prema is superior to dāsya prema and it is sarva-sādhya-sāra, the essence and best of all goals.”
I will explain more in the evening. Time is short. We should be satisfied only hearing dāsya-rasa for today. We will continue in the evening from 7:00 to 8:00. You should try to come here at 7:00 because from 8:00 to 9:00 is not favorable for me. Come just before 7:00 and we will have very beautiful kīrtana. After kīrtana I will explain.
Gaura Premānande! Hari hari bol!
[Śrīla Gurudeva leads the devotees in singing Śrī Nanda Nandanandanāṣṭakam, then sings the second to last verse of Śrī Rādhā-kṛpā-katākṣa Stava-rāja, and ends with the Hare Kṛṣṇa mahā-mantra.]
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