Excerpt from Srila Gurudeva: Around the World, Holland 1996, the first book in a series of volumes on Srila Gurudeva’s world preaching tours.
So we should try to be a sādhaka. Bilvamaṅgala was a sādhaka. Rūpa Gosvāmī, Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī, and all other gosvāmīs were liberated souls. Not only liberated, they were eternal associates of Kṛṣṇa and Śrīmatī Rādhikā. But yet, they have practiced very strongly. They have shown how to do bhajana. We should try to do it. If we cannot do it like them, still we will have to try like this.
Saṅkhyā-pūrvaka-nāma-gāna-natibhiḥ kālāvasānī-kṛtau. Do you know this? Saṅkhyā-pūrvaka-nāma-gāna-natibhiḥ? By number, keeping number, we will not do less than this. Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī has told that if a man, if a devotee does not take one lākha name, then Kṛṣṇa will not take anything from his hand. But our ācāryas have told that one lākha means one name. This is also one lākha. What is the meaning of one lākha?
Devotee: 100,000 names, 64 rounds.
Śrīla Gurudeva: Yes. And also that we should do it having one lakṣa, or an aim. Kṛṣṇa is our beloved, and the servant of Rādhikā, and I am the servant of Kṛṣṇa. Jīvera svarūpa haya nitya-kṛṣṇa-dāsa…this is the aim and this is lakṣa. But in name…should be that one name is equal to so many names. If our aim can be to chant while our mind is not going here and there… It is very hard, but it can come. [Devotees laugh] Then a faith will come that if a man tells you that if you’ll chant names for the whole day and night then who will cook, who will manage for your living and cloths and everything? Who will do all this? Śrīla Śrīvāsa Paṇdita has answered this question. Totally not doing anything. He has a wife, he has children, such a big parivāra. What is the meaning of parivāra? Family. But doing nothing, always with karatālas, “Haribol Haribol! Haribol Haribol!”
Devotees: Gaura Premānande Hari Haribol!
Śrīla Gurudeva: At night also…Hare Kṛṣṇa Hare Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa Hare Hare Hare Rāma Hare Rāma Rāma Rāma Hare Hare. Always. Caitanya Mahāprabhu said to him that, “You are chanting harināma day and night, you know that you have children to nourish and your wife to maintain and your house to maintain, from where will it come?” He replied, not telling anything. [Śrīla Gurudeva claps while saying:] One, two, three.
Devotee: Clapping three times.
Śrīla Gurudeva: Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “I don’t know the meaning of this. What is this?” [Śrīla Gurudeva claps, devotees laugh] He told that “I know that…I know, and I have so much faith that if I will chant Kṛṣṇa, if I will do kīrtana of Kṛṣṇa, in Gītā, Kṛṣṇa has told that, ‘I will bring everything and manage everything for him, if they are doing nothing for their support or anything. I will take all these things, which are necessary for My bhakta, and I will manage, on My head…or on My waist?’”
Śrīla Gurudeva: Shoulders, I will take… I will carry. One devotee said that he will not carry on his back because he is God, and he cut the line that is in Gītā.
ananyāś cintayanto māṁ
ye janāḥ paryupāsate
yoga-kṣemaṁ vahāmy aham
Whatever necessities there are for a bhakta, I will carry all these things, and I will manage to give to him. And he cut this line. He went to beg, but today he could not have anything from anyone. At midday he was so worried and he returned to home. But before that, a boy about the age of 12, very very beautiful, sweet and very soft, not black, but…
Devotee: Black. [Devotees laugh]
Śrīla Gurudeva: Because no word is for that. Kṛṣṇa is not black. He is not black. He is so beautiful. He came in the shape of a boy, having a…carrying loads here and there. Sweat was coming from everywhere, having a…Pītāmbara, very good Pītāmbara here, and He came and knocked on the door. “O guru-ma, Oh mother Gurudeva, where are you? Open the door.”
The brāhmaṇī was there and so poor, that she had no clothing, nothing. Worn and torn she came and opened the door and that boy entered the room with so many heavy loads. Rice, dāl, so many sābji, ghee, butter, sugar, everything was there in full. And he put them down there and began to take long breaths.
She asked, “From where you are coming? Who has sent you?”
He said, “My teacher. That is, my Guru, spiritual master. That brāhmaṇa, your husband sent me. He collected so many things and told me that, ‘You should take it to my house.’ I told him that I am a very little boy, how can I carry? But yet he told me, ‘You should go obey my orders. Carry out my orders.’ Not only that. I was delayed for some moments, and he scratched my back, you can see.”
And she saw, and began to weep that a scratch was there.
“Oh bleeding is coming, just now coming, coming, coming…”
She began to weep, and said, “When my husband will come, I will see him and ask, ‘Why have you done so? You are so cruel now? You were not so before. You have become so cruel.’”
In the meantime, she requested that boy, “You should wait a little, I am making arrangements for prasādam. I am going to cook very nicely and in no time. I will cook and You should take, and my husband will come, then You may go. Just You should rest here awhile.”
In the meantime, the brāhmaṇa came and knocked on the door. She was angry and she went there and opened the door and told him, “You are so cruel that you have scratched a boy, very tall, so sweet, so generous…and such a little and soft boy…such a beautiful boy.”
“I have not seen him. I have no disciple. It is 3 p.m., but I have not received anything from my begging. I have not told anyone to come here, no disciple at all.”
“No, no. You are telling a lie. That boy cannot tell a lie. You should come with me and see how you have scratched Him.”
He went there and saw that there was no boy, but everything was there. The lady began to search everywhere. “Where is He? Where, where, where? Kṛṣṇa, Kṛṣṇa? No Kṛṣṇa.” Then he began to weep. Her husband began to weep, because the boy had been Kṛṣṇa and had come to fulfill His word in Gītā. He has done like so. Then both began to weep so loudly, thinking that, “Kṛṣṇa has come here, but we could not recognize Him.”
So as devotees who have niṣṭhā, they have so much faith that Kṛṣṇa will arrange everything and he will carry all these things. If a disciple, a devotee, is like this, he will always chant Hare Kṛṣṇa Hare Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa Hare Hare Hare Rāma Hare Rāma Rāma Rāma Hare Hare…no danger will come, no problem, nothing. [Devotees laugh]. A gṛhastha should be like this, and if this is the bhāva have, then you will be a sādhaka, really a sādhaka. I want to be a sādhaka like this and I wish that those who have not become, perhaps you have become so qualified, but for those who are not qualified like this, I pray to Kṛṣṇa that they should be qualified for this.
Gaura Premānande Hari Haribol!
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