Audio Katha Katyayani Vrata - Giridhari das Br. - 13 November 2019 pm

Katyayani Vrata – Giridhari das Br. – 13 November 2019 pm

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The ears are very restless and always try to hear different sounds, but if just once we hear the jingling sound of Śrīmatī Rādhārānī’s anklebells, we will lose all desire to hear mundane sounds. That sound bestows supreme auspiciousness. śaśakabhṛd-abhisāre netra-bhṛṅāñcalābhyāṁ       diśi vidiśi bhayenodghūrṇitābhyāṁvanāni kuvalaya-dala-kośāny eva klptāni yābhyāṁ       kim u kila kalanīyo devi tābhyāṁ jano ‘yamVilāpa-kusumāñjali 13 O Devī, with the two bumblebees of the corners of Your eyes, which in the moonlit rendezvous anxiously wander over each direction as if the forest were a jungle of blue lotuses, will You glance upon this person? Śrīmatī Rādhārānī is so effulgent that Her brilliance increases the light of the full moon, making it difficult to move secretly through the forest. Rādhārānī’s eyes move restlessly, searching, “Where is that blue lotus? Is He close or far away? Which kuñja is He in? Maybe He is hiding close by. Will that blue lotus attack Me on the way?”Dāsa Gosvāmī says, “Don’t worry, we are guarding the pathway. He is far away, waiting anxiously for Your arrival, listening for any sound of Your approach. He is thinking about You and chanting Your mantra.”On the dark moon night Srimati Radharani is difficult to see. She dresses completely in black and walks on a hidden path through the forest, staying close to dark Tamāla trees and other plants and creepers on Her way to the kuñja-kuṭīra.Dāsa Gosvāmī says, “My eyes are greedy for Your darśana; I am waiting for Your mercy. I am Your insignificant maidservant. Is Your darśana possible for me with these eyes?”Sādhakas engage in bhajana. We go to Guru-pāda-padma with a desire for hari-kathā and guru-sevā, but there are many cheaters and dacoits waiting to pounce on us: asad-vārtā-veśyā visṛja mati-sarvasva-haraṇīḥ     kathā mukti-vyāghryā na śṛṇu kila sarvātma-gilanīḥapi tyaktvā lakṣmī-pati-ratim ito vyoma-nayanīm     vraje rādhā-kṛṣṇau sva-rati-maṇi-dau tvaṁ bhaja manaḥManah-siksha 4 asac-ceṣṭā-kaṣṭa-prada-vikaṭa-pāśālibhir iha      prakāmaṁ kāmādi-prakaṭa-pathapāti-vyatikaraiḥgale baddhvā hanye ’ham iti bakabhid vartmapa-gaṇe      kuru tvaṁ phutkārān avati sa yathā tvāṁ mana itaḥManah-siksha 5Many cheaters and dacoits, internal and external; mundane people and lust, anger, greed, madness are waiting on both sides, not wanting to give us a chance to hear hari-kathā and serve. If we are not distracted and go directly towards Srimati Radharani, then Kṛṣṇa will help us and will show us the pathway to meet with Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. By chanting Rādhārānī’s holy names Kṛṣṇa will arrange everything to help you progress.Dāsa Gosvāmī says, “Srimati Radharani is Vṛndāvaneśvarī. For a long time I have been waiting to attain Her service. Now I understand that Rūpa Mañjarī has opened a training center in Vṛndāvana. Before, I had no guardian. I had not offered myself, then who would teach me and make me qualified? Who would help me? I did not know, but now I understand. Rūpa Mañjarī will help me. And even though I have no strong desire for service, she will give greed, strength, and anurāga.”There are two types of service: by duty and by love. Anything you do by love is accepted. Service performed out of a sense of duty has no sweetness. Sometimes you do it, but carelessly, with a mood of neglect. One house has many servants. The servants come and perform their duty and thereafter run away. There are many tutors ready to teach and many guardians to train us, but they have no love. Therefore the students never learn anything. Why do people come to Gurudeva and Vaiṣṇavas—to learn the process of loving service in Sevā-kuñja, under guidance of the Vraja-devīs.Dāsa Gosvāmī prays, “O Vṛndāvaneśvarī, I had no idea before about my guardian who would accept me, who would not only tell me my faults, but who would help change my faulty nature and bring me back from the wrong path, who would be kind and very sweet to me, who is helpful for me. In this world everyone looks for faults but cannot give good qualities. But who is very kind, soft, and helpful? Who doesn’t neglect, kick, torture, and throw me out? Love has the power to transform, but the process of love is crooked—helping sometimes by neglect, sometimes by acceptance, and sometimes indirectly.”Śrīla Gurudeva has appeared at a distance and from there he is watching, “Who are the real followers of my principles, my rules and regulations? Are they following or not?” Kṛṣṇa is eternal; Gurudeva is eternal. They arrange Vaiṣṇavas to help. They are the abodes of mercy, but we don’t realize how kind they are.Anything we watch with mundane eyes will cheat us. For example, one person is chanting harinama, and is internally serving Girirāja Govardhana. His eyes are open and he is sitting in one place, but he is doing parikramā of Girirāja Govardhana within. He is praying, singing, doing abhiśeka, cooking, offering bhoga, decorating the pathway with flowers, and distributing prasāda. But ordinary people think that he is only sitting, doing nothing. They tell him, “Hey rascal, go do some work.” They tell it to him twenty times but he doesn’t answer; he can’t even hear this.If your eyes can’t cross māyā, then how can you understand the nature of that transcendental realm?In this Sevā-kuñja, you must not think that there are only monkeys and it is a dirty place where there are some thorn trees. If you have real knowledge, you will pray and wait for service in the eternal Sevā-kuñja. You will pray to the tutors of Sevā-kuñja: Rūpa Manjari, Lavanga Mañjarī, Vilāsa Mañjarī, Rati Mañjarī, Rasa Mañjarī, Vinoda Mañjarī... They are helpers, like nurses, knowing how to give treatment and make us strong and healthy. Gradually, they will teach us and help us learn something. Then we won’t look towards māyā. This is possible when we develop attachment to Rādhārānī’s lotus feet. The Vraja-devīs offer pollen, reddish kuṁkum, and alta everyday on Rādhārānī’s feet. The love of their heart is the reddish color of anurāga. yadavadhi mama kañcin mañjarī rūpa-pūrvā     vraja-bhuvi bata netra-dvandva-dīptiṁ cakāratadavadhi bata vṛndāraṇya-rājñi prakāmaṁ     caraṇa-kamala-lakṣā-sandidṛkṣā mamābhūtVilāpa-kusumāñjali 14 O queen of Vṛndāvana, since Rūpa Mañjarī filled my eyes with light in the land of Vraja, I have yearned to see the red lac decorating Your lotus feet. If one drop of that kuṁkum touches our body, or if we have a desire to see that and we pray for that, then it is possible to attain Her mercy, and to understand who is favorable and helpful. Then we will make a relation with Her group and group leaders. Rays of love will come from Her lotus feet, and with that love we will be able to understand. Otherwise many cheaters come, trying to make relation with us. Many boys and girls come as thieves and cheaters to steal our blood, but don’t look at them. We can stop this by becoming one-pointed to Rādhārānī’s lotus feet and praying to Her. anayārādhito nūnaṁ      bhagavān harir īśvaraḥyan no vihāya govindaḥ      prīto yām anayad rahaḥŚrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.30.28 Srimati Radharani has power to attract even the all-attractive Kṛṣṇa, who worships Her, chanting Her mantra, only to obtain a little of Her mercy and blessings. yadā tava sarovaraṁ sarasa-bhṛṅga-saṅghollasat-        saroruha-kulojjvalaṁ madhura-vāri-sampūritamsphuṭat-sarasijākṣi he nayana yugma-sākṣād-babhau        tadaiva mama lālasājani tavaiva dāsye raseVilāpa-kusumāñjali 15O Devī, whose eyes are as beautiful as two blossoming lotus flowers, when Your lake, filled with sweet water, and splendid with many blossoming lotus flowers and buzzing bees, appeared before my eyes, I at once began to yearn for the nectar of direct service to You. When the sun rises, lotuses gradually blossom. My heart and soul is in a dark and dirty place, but the light of Śrīla Gurudeva and the Vaiṣṇavas’ mercy will open my spiritual eyes.Dāsa Gosvāmī says, “In the early morning, a bumblebee goes near flowers and sings. The bumblebee Kṛṣṇa goes in the early morning and sings.” How does Kṛṣṇa sing? Like Rāmānanda Rāya sings: kalayati nayanaṁ diśi diśi valitampaṅkajam iva mṛdu-māruta-calitam Rādhā’s eyes move in all directions like a lotus moving in a gentle breeze. Kṛṣṇa sings like this. He is a bumblebee, attached to Rādhārānī’s glories; this is His only drink. Without singing Her glories He can’t be happy.What does the Guru-varga distribute? Rice, dal, medicine, cloth? No! This is only temporary relief. But the soul is not temporary. Without transcendental rasa the soul can never attain its own position. It gets one uniform after another, like that of an elephant, horse, camel, or human. The soul cannot attain its permanent svarūpa without the help of sādhus. To distribute that transcendental rasa, Śrīla Gurudeva, the Vaiṣṇavas, and Kṛṣṇa Himself sing the glories of Śrīmatī Rādhārānī. Dāsa Gosvāmī Prabhu prays for this.In Vraja-maṇḍala, Rūpa Gosvāmī Prabhu is always very busy. People think he is a sādhu with no room and work. What does he do day and night?Like my Guru Mahārāja, nitya-līlā-praviṣṭa oṁ viṣṇupāda aśtottara-śata Śrī Śrīmad Bhaktidevānta Vāmana Gosvāmī Mahārāja. In his last two years, he practically stopped talking, eating, and sleeping. His sevaka requested, “Take some prasāda, Guru Mahārāja,” but he wouldn’t accept. When they requested him again and again, he said, “I am very busy, I have no time to eat anything or talk with you.”“But Guru Mahārāja, what are you doing that keeps you so busy?”“On one side Ṭhākurānī is giving me many instructions, and on the other side my Gurudeva is giving me instructions for service. I have no time to spare. What should I do? I have no time to eat, talk or do anything in this world.”How can people understand the activities and position of sādhus? Therefore Dāsa Gosvāmī Prabhu is saying, “I came to Vraja-maṇḍala and met with Rūpa Gosvāmī Prabhu, and saw that he is very busy, day and night, distributing the nectar of Vraja-maṇḍala. How can I accept that? Please teach and help me. Give me power to accept this and take away all desire to accept anything else. May I have greed only to collect this unnata-ujjvala-rasa. Having come to Vraja-maṇḍala, may I forget everything else.”

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In the śāstra, it tells us to wake in the early morning and to bathe, dress, put on tilaka and do ācamana, and then serve Kṛṣṇa and remember His mantra. But then a long time is spent, and the anurāgis don’t like this. What does Kṛṣna like? Kṛṣṇa is in Mathurā, at the home of a caturvedi. One old widow lady is present. She had a son, who was very young, three and a half. His name was Sadana. In the early morning he would cry to his mother, “I am very hungry.” Babies’ become very hungry. He cried for something to eat in the early morning, and his mother would cook something. She did not bathe or change into clean clothes, wash the cooking pots, or clean the kitchen. She put a pot on top of a few bricks and began a fire. This would occur daily. She would put water in a pot and cook porridge or khicari. How did she stir the pot? She stirred the pot with a tree branch, which she used as a spoon as well as a toothbrush. As she cooked, she brushed her teeth with one side of the branch, and with the other, she stirred the pot on the fire. When the khicari was cooked, she put it on a plate to cool and said to her boy, Sadana, “Now take your breakfast, I am going to bathe in the Yamunā.” When she went to bathe, Sadana called Madana from the altar room, “Come, You are hungry. I am hungry. Let’s eat!” Then, without a sitting mat, an offering of flowers, puṣpāñjali, or Vedic mantras, Madana came and sat down to eat with Sadana from the same plate. The khicari was very hot, so they blew on it to cool it down. Sadana took a handful of khicari and said to Madana, “It’s so hot, how shall we eat it?” Then Sadana blew on the khicari in his hand till it was cooled and gave his hand in the mouth of Madana. Then Madana took some in His hand and blew on it, then gave it to Sadana. In this way, they ate together happily and then ran off to play without cleaning their hands, leaving the plate lying on the ground. Sanātana Gosvāmī went on daily parikramā from Vṛndāvana to Mathurā, to Govardhana, and then back to Vṛndāvana. He took darśana of the bhaktas and accepted mādhukarī from the Vrajavāsīs in search of the anurāgī devotees. One day, as he passed through Mathurā, he saw these two boys eating. One ate a little faster than the other, and then they fought over who had gotten a bigger share. Afterwards, they did not wash their hands or mouth, and the remnant plate was left behind. They wore small clothes and began playing guli-daṇḍā. One took a big stick and struck a smaller stick on the ground, making it fly up into the air, and then they chased after it together trying to hit it. Sanātana Gosvāmī said, “Prabhu, I am very lucky to see You in this attractive form! How are you? With no rules, no Vedic mantra, no ācamana, no bath—this Vrajavāsī cooked for You, and You greedily ate everything up. She was even brushing her teeth with the same stick with which she stirred the pot, and she did not even wash the plate before she gave the offering to You!” Sanātana Gosvāmī watched this pastime and wept. He began to come every day to see the pastimes of Madana Mohana. One day he called the mother over, and said, “I know your son is very hungry, but you should first bathe and clean the area up before cooking.” She said, “Yes, Bābā, I will try to follow your request.”The next day she went to bathe in the Yamunā and washed her cloth, then cleaned all the pots and room, but was late to cook—Madana and Sadana were very hungry and were crying. They came to the Bābā, “What did you tell my mother? She is not cooking for us. We are hungry and can’t tolerate it. You are an old man. Your digestive fire has stopped working, therefore you aren’t hungry. But what stupid advice did you give our mother? Now our stomachs are burning, and we are suffering so much!” Each boy caught one side of the Bābā and began pulling on his cloth. Sanātana Gosvāmī had written many rules and regulations in Hari-bhakti-vilāsa—this month these flowers, this month this bhoga, this month this seat, and so forth—he wrote so many rules and regulations. But that Sanātana Gosvāmī was very restless now, and was crying before those baby boys. Before, he had no fire of digestion, but now he was also hungry like Lord Hari. Why? Tasmin tusṭe jagat tuṣṭe. If the Lord is satisfied, the universe is satisfied. If you feed God, and He is satisfied, then the entire world is satisfied. If God is hungry, everyone is hungry. Sanātana Gosvāmī thought what to do. When the mother returned, he said, “These boys are very restless and hungry. How many sons do you have?” “One, Sadana.” “And this other boy?” “Who, Madana?” “Yes, where did He come from?” “He is the neighbor’s boy.” She did not know that the Madana-mohana she worshipped came and ate with her boy. Other pujārīs came and rang bells, offered candana, and gave a small plate with food to offer. This was their rule. They gave four or five chapatis and a small bowl of subji, and one small cup of milk—it was limited. Then how would His hunger be satisfied? He wanted to eat a lot. But pujārīs feed Him, using a measurement and scale, “This much is for God, the rest for us.” Kṛṣṇa said, “This is not possible for Me. These are rules and regulations of śāstra.” Kṛṣṇa continued, “I am not a prisoner, that you give Me four chapattis and I eat like a cow in a pen. I don’t like this. I eat with My sakhā, friend. I eat in front of everyone, with everyone. I will eat from any plate or hand.” Like the pastime of Dahi-ciḍā-mahotsava in Pānihāṭi—during the feast, Nityānanda Prabhu went to all the thousands of devotees and took handfuls from everyone’s plate, giving it to Mahāprabhu. Mahāprabhu ate from everyone’s pot. Who saw this? Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī, Rāghava Paṇḍita, Śivānanda Sena, and other advanced Vaiṣṇavas. They saw Nityānanda Prabhu taking a handful and giving it somewhere, and Mahāprabhu was accepting everything. The bhaktas are not controlled by any rules and regulations. Their anurāga is very strong. They have too much anurāga and burn from its heat. This is not a small thing. God drinks and eats this love. Now Sanātana Gosvāmī was feeling bad and said, “Mother, continue cooking as you did before. Never stop cooking and offering like this.” The next day Sanātana Gosvāmī came and the boys were not crying. Their mother had given a plate. They were sitting down eating and said, “Bābā, thank you. Now don’t come here anymore. Seeing our eating habits, you become disturbed. Therefore don’t come here anymore.” I offer something to God, but am also greedy for this. If the manager gives four rasagullas, and three come back from the offering, he will ask the pūjārī, “What happened to the rasagullā?” If the pūjārī doesn’t give any answer, then the manager will bind and beat him with a whip, saying, “Where did the rasagullā go?” It is not the rule of anurāga to offer to yourself and not God—this is not bhajana and bhakti. Raghunandana was the son of Mukunda Datta. Mukunda Datta worshipped a Deity of Gopīnātha. Raghunandana said, “Prabhu, you eat lots of laddus in Vraja-maṇḍala. My mother only gives you a little. I want her to cook a lot, and I will bring everything to you.” Gopīnātha replied, “Yes, I will carry it here and lock the door, and we will both eat.” “No, first you eat, and then I will eat; otherwise, my mother will beat me.” “No, don’t worry. We will eat together. When your mother asks what happened, tell her Gopīnātha ate everything.” In this way, both Raghunandana and Gopīnātha played together. Raghunandana had pure love for Gopīnātha, and therefore Gopīnātha engaged in loving pastimes with him. There are millions of followers of rules and regulations. The followers of pure love, anurāga, are very rare in this world. It is very rare to find them. There are therefore two sampradāyas—one is the lampaṭa-sampradāya, meaning, the anurāga-sampradāya, and the other sampradāya is called vaidhī-mārga, maryādā-mārga-sampradāya. They follow all rules and regulations and etiquette. If there is some discrepancy in following the rules and regulations, like if the bhoga is meant to be offered at six o’clock, and is not, then a fight will ensue. Vaidhi-mārga means to follow the rules and regulations strictly. Sometimes people without a sufficient fund of knowledge establish some etiquette, or rule and regulation, and demand that it be followed by everyone.

Gurudeva Appears to Devoted Disciples

Śrīla Gurudeva endeavored to bring everyone to Vṛndāvana. He wants to make us all Vrajavāsīs. He therefore gave us a place nearby Rādhā-Ramaṇa, Rādhā Govinda, Gopinātha, and Madana-mohana. Gurudeva gave us a place in the shelter of Rūpa-Sanātana. He told us to stay nearby them, but now, all want to run far away. The fire of this desire is disturbing everybody. This is not a good idea. My request is not enough. If it were, then I would catch hold of everyone’s feet and pray for the devotees not to follow this idea and mentality. I was with Gurudeva and saw what he did. I saw how he gave the jīvas of this world great strength and power to attain svarūpa-siddhi. Jīvas do not understand. Babies do not know the path of their welfare, but Śrīla Gurudeva knows everything. Out of causeless mercy, he tries to bring us forward on the path of vraja-bhakti, which will lead us to our eternal welfare. If you try to follow Śrīla Gurudeva’s mood from morning to evening, then you will surely see for yourself that you are not distant from Gurudeva. But if you do not follow his footsteps, then aṣṭa-kālīya-līlā, aṣṭayāma sādhana, and eternal vraja-riti will not come into your heart. Only māyā will come and you will run for the business of the body and mind. You will forget about the business of the soul.

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